Since I have to hide in the bathroom to type this.

Yesterday was nice. We ended up going out to a party, which was an unexpected treat. The party wasn't that great honestly but it was really nice to get out of the house and spend the night dancing. Even if I was in heels.

Today may not be so good. We were supposed to go out tonight, so of course, since I made the mistake of actually looking forward to it, it isn't going to happen. Also, I'm kinda bummed because there was someone I thought I was going to get to hang out with tonight, and that's not the case either. But I'm not going to get into that

Weight is at 152.0

Clean something for 30min every other day for a month. (week 1/4)
This one was a write off this week, I did some cleaning at work, but I just didn't have the motivation to do anything else when I got home and then the weekend I was out and sketchy.
Exercise 3 times a week for at least half an hour. (2/4)
This went really well this week, I'm learning to grapple once a week, so I did that for about 40 minutes one day, and they I went for a 2 hour walk/hike on Saturday morning. I also spent some time dancing Saturday night.
Do Laundry twice a month for 6 months (0/12)
I mentioned I hate Laundry, right? But seriously, I'm almost out of clean clothes.

Create and follow a debt payment plan focusing on student loans.
I'm officially taking this off for a couple weeks, I'll come back for it later.
Track all spending for one month. 
I did this one for about 2 weeks, but I'm actually going to start it over, so that I can go for a month straight.

File taxes. 
So I went to the late tax place and they told me that they couldn't set me up an appointment until I called the Canada Revenue Agency and got them to mail me all my old t4's and such. I called the CRA and they told me that they couldn't release the information to me because I have never filed before. I need to go into my local office, so my goal this week is to do that. Also the late tax place is going to charge me like 300-400 bucks so I need to figure that out too. Sorry if this didn't make any sense to every one not from Canada.
Spend one hour a week improving memory for a month 2/4
Did some memory games, also we are doing tests with the roommates to improve memory.

Draw once a month.(0/12)
Going to try to get this one done this week. 

Start a dream journal and update it twice a week for a month
I haven't really remembered any of my dreams, and I've been rushing to get up and get ready for work this week, so not much was done on this one.


New Additions


Eat Veggie for a month (1/4 weeks)
I'll be honest. It's really veggie light. Fish is ok, and once a week we are eating meat. However the bestie and and I are ending it in a three day juice fast.


Research Careers
I'm not sure how I'm going to go about this yet, so my goal for this week is to figure that out.


Contact 5 friends I haven't seen in over a year and see them in person (2/5)
I've actually seen three people I haven't seen in over a year this week, but two of them were a happy accident at the party on the weekend, so they only got a half point each.


Become an organ donor
My goal for this week is to find out what I need to do to become a donor.

Since I ranted at you all last.

Honestly I'm not even sure what to say. I've had to work every day this week except for the weekend. Honestly I was feeling pretty crappy most of the week and some of its a bit of a blur. I guess I'll start from last weekend. Exboy has already lost his new job, no surprise there, so hopefully he will be able to come up with rent for the end of the month. He stayed in the city that weekend, so he could look for a new job, but then he spent the weekend "sick" and didn't do anything. Well, that's not true, he did some cleaning the day we came home, so I'll give credit where its due. He also ate meat all weekend, and doesn't realize that when you order food online it sends me the receipt, which I think is funny.

While he was doing... Well whatever it was he was doing... The Bestie, J and I went to the 'burbs, where she and I grew up. We saw an old friend, who I haven't seen in years, and spent the night doing shots (sailor jerry's overproof rum and fireball whiskey), playing cards and catching up. Other then a small plate of Chinese food, so I wouldn't puke when I drank, I ate only a bagel in the morning although the calories in the booze more then made up for it.

The next day we went to Besties parents house, so she could spend some time with them while she was in town. We also used our one meat day a week that day, because her parents made super tasty home made burgers. That night we picked up a bottle of vodka and a bottle of blueberry liquor, and then Besties mom made nacho dip, so even though I only had a burger, some salad and less then a quarter of the dip, my cals were still shot for the day.

We were supposed to come back the next day, but ended up staying until Tuesday. I think we all appreciated the chance for some time away from exboy. Also it gave us the chance to talk a bit about what is going to happen when our lease is up in September. Obviously, I have no desire to continue to live with exboy, but he is desperate to make me feel like an asshole every time it comes up. I wasn't sure how to bring the situation up with the roomies, but its comforting to know now that they are still on my side of things.

Sometimes, honestly, I wish they weren't. It would be so much easier if I could just bounce and worry about myself, but that just isn't going to happen. After 5 years of bugging bestie to move in with me, I am stuck with her now. While I love her to death, she can have horrific timing sometimes. So if that's the case and I can't live by myself, then I see no reason to stop living with J either. Apparently, he some friends who would like to live with him as well, so his idea is that the 3 of us should rent a house with his other 2 friends.

The question becomes, how do I tell exboy that the rest of us want to live together and I don't want him to come without ruining our friendship and potentially making him kill himself.

The rest of the week rushed by. Work and sleep. Weight was stable, food was average. My new weakness food in grilled cheese sandwiches. They are made in the sandwich maker, so they don't have butter, but they are still no good.

Friday night, we got another bottle of sailor jerry's, because it was J's birthday on Saturday. In the end however, he ended up spending the night out with his brother, and bestie and I split the bottle.

The next morning, we took the dog for a nice long walk and hike though the trails near our house. Saturday night, we went out to a house party with J for his birthday. I ended up doing four pills and getting higher then I have been in years and overall had an excellent time. I also saw some people I used to be good friends with and who I haven't seen in years, so that was excellent as well.

Sunday was a day of recovery. I was still very high when I got home at like 9AM the next morning, and everyone else passed out, but I was unable to sleep that whole day. I was incredible sore, and couldn't eat a bite until almost 5AM the night after we got back and I didn't sleep til 7:30AM the next morning.

Overall it was an excellent experience. I was incredibly high, but I never felt out of control or unsafe. It did however, burn me out and I have no desire to be high again for quite some time. It was also excellent for my waistline, and I'm down to 151.6.

I guess that's about it for now. Which is good, because this is getting really long and my fingers are starting to hurt.

So I'm back. Finally.

I've decided that this blog and my life both need more structure, so I've set up goals based on the dayzeroproject website. Basically I have 102 goals to accomplish within the next 1001 days. Check out the pages to see what my goals are and the post below to see which ones I'm tackling this month.

Things were stressful, then they weren't, then they were much more stressful. But it's too much to get into. They are moderately more calm at the moment, so lets just start fresh here, m'kay? Everything you need to know at the moment about the people I live with is on the housemates page, and I'll let you know more if needed.

Food wise, I climbed back up to close to 160, then got back on track. I have not binged in 8 days, and lost 4lbs, putting my current weight at 154.6 My measurements page will be updated when I get a few minutes to be obsessive with the tape measure. I haven't gone about 1200cals in a week and a half and at least half the time I'm under 900 as well. Not quite low enough but getting there. There are chips in the kitchen calling my name, but I will be strong.

I did an hour of cleaning today, put my dream journal beside my bed, and I'll brush and floss before bed. Mouthwash will have to wait a couple days.

The next post will have pretty ladies in it, but I'm too tired now.