Clean something for 30min every other day for a month. (week 3/4)
I've been killing this one. I've been through most of the boxes in my room and am in the process of cleaning it top to bottom. I've also gone through all of the clothes and sorted out the ones for mending and the ones for washing


Do Laundry twice a month for 6 months (2/12)

I've done this twice now, and I have more clean clothes then I have had in years. It's thrilling.

Track all spending for one month.
What spending?

File taxes. 
Called the place to make an appointment and this time they told me I would have to send them a letter instead. Wrote the letter, and I'm faxing it from work tomorrow. This seriously shouldn't be this complicated. To any children reading this boring crap, I should be a cautionary tail. Keep your shit organized. You pay for it later if you don't.
Spend one hour a week improving memory for a month 2/4
I forgot? I guess its not working...
Draw once a month.(0/12)
Every time I do this I think "Oh yeah... drawing..." and then I completely move on to other things. I've picked out some pictures though

Start a dream journal and update it twice a week for a month
It's apparently disappeared, despite the fact my room is almost clean now. Not impressed.

Research Careers
Spent a ton of time looking into university programs this week. Didn't actually decide anything, but do I ever?

Contact 5 friends I haven't seen in over a year and see them in person (2/5)
A friend from up north actually got in touch with me the other day, so that was interesting. We'll see how that goes.
Become an organ donor
I have every intention of doing this tomorrow, but really when don't I?


Create a list of ten things to improve about myself
Done!

Create a list of twenty things I like about myself
Done!


New additions


Empty all the boxes in the bedroom
Only one to go!


Purge old clothing
It's the good kind of purging?


Mend all clothing
I might not get to this one this week, but now that its all separated there is no reason not to get this done


No Fast food for a month
This one is going to be tough, since there in no food in the house and no one seems to grocery shop anymore. But I think that means it's more important to do it now then ever. I start on the first, tomorrow

Nothing makes you  starve better then not being able to afford food.

Like seriously. I'm at a new low today, 146.6 when I weighed in when I got up, and a few hours later when I weighed again, 145.8. Awesome.

I've been under 800 cals a day for at least 5 days. Maybe more, but that's all I have tracked and I can't remember further back then that, and I can't be bothered to try. Either way, its going very well, and I am thrilled, so at least that's going right.

So, in honour of my weight loss, some thinspo :)

1. I am thinner then 60% of people my age
2. I'll try almost anything once
3. I read people well, I can usually tell what people are thinking, their emotions and if they are lying to me.

Money is really tight right now, and our internet and phone got cut off, so now we are in the process of switching companies. We have no weed, no smokes, no food, no cash. We are a grumpy house. But weight loss is going well because there is nothing here to eat. I'm down to 148 and I was at 147 two days ago. I can't even begin to say how happy I am to FINALLY be out of the 150's for good.

Only so much can be said for anonymity, and I am constricted by the things I dare not commit to text. There are so many things that I can't say aloud, for fear of judgement and reprisal, and yet this makes this blog feel like it missing so much.

My life is sin and debauchery. I feel like I'm being consumed by it and I am torn between giving myself to it fully and running in terror.

I miss the days when I lived a double life. Now I am fragmented, persona after persona, never the same person to anyone. Including the one I have here, I have 5 different names to go by, 5 lives to live, with different priorities and goals. I'm losing track, losing focus I never had. Splitting into pieces and unable to follow through with anything, unable to be any one person properly.

I am lost in the overlap, trying to plan for a future I can't even begin to imagine. I feel like a child, playing pretend and unable to finally grow up.

All I know is I'm a liar, a cheat and a flake. Unreliable and unfit for consumption.

I am so terrified that I am missing something or forgetting something that I find myself  immobilized.

10 things to improve about myself

1. Procrastination... urg...
2. My stomach and its loose gross flabbiness
3. Being on time, although I'm actually getting waaaaaaay better at this one already
4. My general lack of style
5. Memory. Wait... what was I doing and where did I put it?
6. Follow through, I get bored with things easily and distracted by the newest thing. I don't know how many things I've started and never finished.
7. My toes. They could be prettier
8. My cheeks. They're poofy.
9. The weird little red dots on my legs.
10. My lack of willpower.

Ten things I like about myself

1. My eyes
2. My wrists
3. My wit
4. My ability to stay calm in most situations
5. That my collar bones are starting to peek out
6. That I can convince people of almost everything
7. My ability to keep talking when I'm nervous
8. My fingernails are getting nicer
9. I am fairly articulate
10. I like my boobs, they are a nice medium size
11. I can read out loud really well
12. I don't have pressure points
13. I can put up with a lot
14. I can almost always find a compromise
15. I can smoke an infinite amount of weed and not be out of it
16. I've never been in a fistfight
17. I pick up new skills quickly


I can't think of the last three...

When I woke up this morning. Although I didn't lose anything doing the vegetarian thing, afterwards we (bestie, exboy and myself) decided to do a three day juice fast for "cleansing purposes".

Today is day two, its much easier then last night for sure, but I'm craving Wendy's like a motherfucker. The only thing keeping me going is the thought of NEVER seeing the 150's again.

This was going to be longer, but really shit just happens.

And I fell down the stairs and my legs are all banged up.

Clean something for 30min every other day for a month. (week 2/4)
Not much interesting to say here, done for this week. Going to do some cleaning when I am done here, assuming its not too late. I am also going to use it as a distraction to avoid eating when I get home from running around tomorrow.

Exercise 3 times a week for at least half an hour. (4/4)
With a ton of walking, this one is done! I pretty much walk home all the time from work now, unless my boss gives me a ride.
Do Laundry twice a month for 6 months (0/12)
Nothing to say here, although we got a new laundry card for our apartment, and that is going to make laundry a much simpler process.  


Track all spending for one month.
Woops! I forgot about this one entirely. Starting again tonight. I think I'm going to look for a different program to use tonight.


File taxes. 
Look up the address for the place, it's by appointment only, so add another thing to the list of boring crap to get done [tomorrow]... This is a direct quote from last time, and still applies.
Spend one hour a week improving memory for a month 2/4
Downloaded a memory improvement app on my friends cellphone so I'll use that this week, but didn't do anything for this one last week


Draw once a month.(0/12)
Lol, still a fail here although I spent some time looking for something to draw the other day.

Start a dream journal and update it twice a week for a month
I'm kinda pissed about this one. I had a dream finally worth reporting, and my journal wasn't next to my bed where it was supposed to be.

Eat Veggie for a month (4/4 weeks)
This one is DONE! Well, we did it until like the 29th, and then it kind of fell apart, but I still counts, because I'm not doing it again to make up for 3 days. 

Research Careers
Still working on it. I'll spend some time with this tonight if its too late to clean.

Contact 5 friends I haven't seen in over a year and see them in person (2/5)
Got in touch with a couple friends from high school, but haven't heard back yet.
Become an organ donor
I have every intention of doing this tomorrow, but really when don't I?


New additions


Bake a cake for a friends birthday
It's exboys birthday next week, so it will be a nice (and cheap) thing to do for him


Take P to Playdium for his birthday
This is his other present


Create a list of ten things to improve about myself


Create a list of twenty things I like about myself